today

today,i realized things aren't the same anymore
today,i had a flashback from a scent
today,i saw how i'm not strong enough...yet
today,i'm so drained emotionally that i'm speechless

sometimes i wonder,was it me or was it them that changed?things aren't quite the same anymore.and that hurts a great deal.because i love them all dearly.

i just hope deep down inside they'll accept me for the way i was and am right now.the worst feeling is when you're having trouble accepting yourself,ppl that you love the most can't accept you too..

i need a pillar,anyone?